Stress. If theres one thing that I have always let get to me, its stress. well that and my temper, but thats another story. Anyways, this week has been filled with some major stress issues. i have the tendency to stress over things that don't need to be stressed over. I also have the tendency to ignore things that shouldn't be ignored until everything just piles up, and thats never pretty.
This week, I found out my aunt is going to have surgery. We thought she had cervical cancer, but it ended up being something else, that while not cancer, is still serious. Then on Friday I went to the dentist for the first time in a few years....that was when everything just kind of hit the fan. I have only had one tooth thats been bothering me, so i figured I had a cavity or two. I have 9. I was completely shocked, and on top of that it sounds like some of them are so bad that theres a chance i wont just need fillings in them, but possibly root canals. And it ends up that half of this is very possibly my old dentists fault, which is just frustrating. so then i start freaking out about how much this will cost. and when we got home from the dentist, there was a letter in the mail from the hospital telling us that they formed my insurance claim for my ER visit, and telling me how much the total cost added up to. WOAH. and we have yet to figure out how much insurance will cover. then i start freaking out about how close the wedding shower is, and how close the sats are, and how i need to sign up for the ged, and finish high school, and about a billion other things. and then, after freaking out for a while, i realized i was worrying for nothing. I have to start remembering who's really in control. It's funny how those memory verses from pioneer clubs, jam, and vbs stick with me. the ones that at the time were nothing more then a free candy bar, or extra points for my team or whatever, come back to me whenever I need them the most. in the middle of my minor breakdown, this verse came to me, along with the commonly heard phrase "God will never give you more then you can handle"
Phil 4:13 "I can do everything through him who gives me strength"
It may not be true that God will never give you more then you can handle on your own, but he doesn't ever give us more then we can handle with his help.
