forgiveness....bitterness...some other stuff

I don't think I will ever understand forgiveness like I want to.
It's crazy...when I was younger forgiveness was so simple.
Now its at times difficult and complex.
I'm learning the importance of forgiveness, especially in those difficult situations. I am still trying to forgive some people for things that happened directly and indirectly to me years ago. The fact that these people hurt my family as well as myself makes it that much harder to forgive them. But its all the more important to forgive them because by not forgiving them I become bitter. I've been denying/avoiding it for some time now but its time to stop.
Confrontation has never been one of my strong points. its probably one of my weakest points actually.
For brothers and sisters in Christ I think it should be more common to confront each other. to call each other out on sin. to hold each other accountable. instead of getting offended when others call us out on this i think we should be thankful. thankful that we have people who care enough to want the best for us. people who help us to strive to be more like Christ.
I also have some major issues with my temper.
I'm quick to yell at another driver on the road who does something i don't like.
I'm quick to become angry over something someone else has done...but I'm not quick to call them out on it. instead I stay angry over something petty.
I need to learn to forgive everyone-no matter how big the offense against me. because God forgave us for soooooooooooo much more. how could we even think of not forgiving someone else?
sometimes im completely shocked at how wordly we have become. we have become lazy, comfortable people. we may spend time with god and talk about god...but I feel like so often we overlook things that long ago would have been considered absolutely horrible. i feel that as time is going on were becoming numb to it all. losing touch with what christ looks like and how that looks in our lives. i feel like we look at some sins as not that big a deal when to God each sin is as big as the next. i feel like we are often forgetting the most important command of all-love your neighbor as yourself.
I think so often we dont love people like we should.
We need to remind ourselves that this time here on earth-its just a tiny little fraction of the time we can spend either in heaven or hell. so lets do the best we can here. lets love with all we have and not be afraid of what others think of us. lets forgive quickly. serve god. and make our biggest goal in life to be like Christ. not to get that great job or that new car or the big house-none of that is really up to us. we could be gone tomorrow. instead, we should be striving to be like christ with everything we have. it should be our number one priority. whats going to please god more-having a huge house, a nice car and a ton of money or having spent your life trying to be like him and to serve him?