singlesness

one of the things God has been teaching me a lot lately is that I need to be patient with my singleness. I know I don't need a boyfriend to complete me, but every so often theres that longing for a relationship....But God has been reminding me that He is preparing me for whats to come, for my future husband. I need to be patient while God shapes me into the person I need to be for what lays ahead. Its hard to wait on Gods timing sometimes...it would be easier perhaps if he sent me a time frame of some sort, but God doesnt work that way. So I have been using this time to focus on what will always come first (or at least what should always come first) in my life, my relationship with Him. I need to be on the right track with God before I get into a relationship with someone. I need to be falling in love with God and putting Him first in my life.
It's good to finally be going in the right direction again. at least for now. Ive had many dry patches/ruts/lazy times/whatever you want to call them in my relationship with God and I know more are to come. but the most recent one was the longest ive ever been in-its been nearly 2 years since I've been in this good of a place in my relationship with Christ. and it feels amazing. Its changed my attitudes, the way I think about everything. I tend to filter my decisions and words through Christ more often now. But I'm also a total sinner, just like everyone else on this earth and I slip up often. I'm looking right now to work on my words...I've been trying to lift others up instead of putting them down. I find it extremely hard to not participate in gossip and slander sometimes...its one of my biggest struggles right now and I hate that it is. I always feel horrible as soon as im done. i need to be more careful with the words that come out of my mouth.